Be Fearless!

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Being a foster parent to newborn babies allows for many lessons to be learned. Having had three placements I am starting to see my spiritual faith expand and my love grow to depths I never knew existed. 
Sometimes these babies arrive in a state of survival their beginning was one filled with strength, endurance and perseverance. The womb, which should be a safe place for a baby to thrive in, has now been a place where the survival battle began.
When we get a new placement we really don’t have a clue about their birth or any other information. We arrive with fresh eyes as we brace ourselves with a load of patience as we take on each new baby. The first night is always filled with nervousness, excitement that hits your gut like a load of bricks. My internal voice whispers self doubt as I find myself asking:

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“Can I make an impact on this baby?

Will I be able to make a difference?”

“What if I can’t help them?”

 

I don’t push that fear aside or sink it deep inside of me I allow it to be.  I have now realized that the fear is based on the unknown and there is no way I can control the unknown.
I know it will pass I just need to give it the space to be and soon it will fade away. I focus on my present state and begin my new journey.
The first two weeks are what I consider my observation weeks. I allow the baby to provide cues and I am diligent with my routine. I burp on the same shoulder, I change diaper in the same exact way,
I have the same greeting at each wake up time, I feed the baby by touching the nipple of the bottle to his nose which allows the baby to identify the scent and know it’s feed time,
I touch the baby in gentle strokes all over his body, I talk to them constantly describing which is constant commentary of each action I make.
My goal is to create a routine that they can rely on and from there I begin documenting. I document what time they eat, how much, awake times and sleep times, why?
I am looking for their natural rhythm. I am finding the clues to put this life schedule puzzle together. I look for the subtle consistency in each day. I will review my notes in the upcoming weeks to find a schedule that will fit their needs.
Sometimes it can be very frustrating when you are trying to figure it out and there are times that the answer takes a while to present it. These moments you can feel vulnerable and I think that is when I tend to feel unsure of myself.
We are conditioned to NOT be vulnerable but I think that is where the connection can start in our relationships and that are true nurturing of the bonds are created by being vulnerable to each other.  
Caring for a baby allows  you to embrace a future you cannot control, it forces you to be completely present.
I am asked by the social workers, MAPP assessor, Lawyer, among some of the people I deal with during this process. They always ask what can we offer this baby as a foster parent.
My response is the same we offer our time; we slow things down and become very present.
We have no children to compare this baby to, we have no pre-conditioned ideas of rearing a child, we take each baby as fresh as they are and we open our lives to them.
We take time getting to know them and figuring out what we can offer to help them along their journey.

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We are present.

We create the space.

We are together.

Human beings are wired to connect by creating relationships that share love, intimacy, and trust. We all crave that even in the newborn state we are craving  love and acceptance.
It takes courage to dig deep and by pushing the limits of our vulnerability  we can  find our true inner core of who we are.
It’s amazing to show up for this tiny human with our imperfections and have them look back accepting and willing to interact with you.
Loving someone without expectations frees you to be willing to show your greatest strengths and true self.
Some of these babies we spend only for a few months of time with, but we know the experiences we share will enable them to be better citizens on planet earth.
It’s the beginning of life that we are in such awe and we feel privileged to be involved in this process we call life.

Planting Peace…

Shelley

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She launched Piece of Time Peace of Mind™ in 2009-a business that is designed to offer services to help people with their overwhelmed lives. Her business offers services as cooking, decorating, personal shopping, grocery shopping, meal prepping, organizing your home, office and or garage. She can even help you with your business offering fresh ideas, resources and streamline your systems, to work more efficiently for you.“I am now helping people who are overwhelmed or have no time, by being an extra set of hands I am able to work with individuals and help them create balance in their lives. I can be your Balance coach offering support and suggestions to gain Peace in your life. I believe everyone Deserves Peace.” When Shelley is not busy planting peacefulness you will find her cooking, gardening volunteering or playing with her pets click here. She actively fosters Babies, participates in senior companionship, networks for animal rescue, mentors students and donates her time at the local library.